Never have I ever experienced the type of love that I feel for my son. The months leading up to his birth were exciting, nerve-wracking, and crazy. I loved my son and I had not met him yet, but when they laid him on my chest after he was born, it was like nothing else in the world mattered. I love my husband, I love my family, I love my dogs... but this little boy is perfection. When he cries, it breaks my heart in a way that I never knew and when he smiles, I want to cry because I am so happy. I really could stare at him all day!
So back to the Never have I ever... truly understood the phrase "patience is a virtue!
It has certainly been quite a lesson in patience. I want to be good at everything the first time, but things like breastfeeding don't come that easy. I needed to be patient while my son and I figured it out. "Patience is a virtue" means something totally different now. I need to be patient with family and friends who all have advice for this first-time mom. Most of it I am truly grateful for, but some advice is just frustrating. The advice giver is always well-meaning, but just doesn't understand the type of mother that I want to be. I am proud to be a babywearing, co-sleeping, breastfeeding mother. I DON'T want to put him down and let him cry while I do what I want to do. He can sleep in the baby carrier while I fold laundry. No, I don't want to give him formula, just so he is used to it, in case there is a time I am not around to feed him. No, i don't want to force him to sleep alone in his room just so I can get a good night of sleep. He can sleep right next to me, in my room and maybe even in my bed. He sleeps better that way, no crying, and I don't have to get up to go nurse him. What works for some mothers is not always what works for everyone. Again, I am grateful to those giving advice, because there is a TON that I still do not know. So, again, patience is definitely a virtue!
